Eyes wide open… Reflections

In the darkest hours of the night, when sleep should prevail, without prejudice, without mercy, questions pour into my head.
I lie awake and I wonder…
Have I lived well enough to make many friends and fewer enemies?
Do I have the courage to cherish my friends and to vanquish my enemies?
Have I spread enough smiles?
Have I shared enough hugs?
Have I planted enough kisses?
Have I caused enough laughter to earn reciprocity?
Have I studied enough history?
Have I been engaged enough in current affairs?
Have I earned a degree in knowledge?
Is knowledge a benefit?
Is knowledge the revelation of truths, or is knowledge the realizations of falsehoods?
Have I learned from every victory and every folly?
If so, am I a benefactor; more important, am I a teacher?
Today, in this world that reports the past in real time;
I see images of life, in real time, how can I relate?
In time to worry for our future.
Have I focused long enough on the anguished faces, I cannot truly see?
Have I listened hard enough to the desperate voices, I truly cannot hear?
Have I seen enough of their pain, I truly cannot feel?
Have I felt their hunger, I cannot feed?
Have I shared in their grief, I cannot quell?
Have I touched enough people?
Has cuddling become a lost art?
If you learn my darkest secret, will you forgive me?
Will I forgive myself?
Did I stop smoking soon enough to live forever?
How much double churned ice cream is too much?
Will I die and when?
Will it be too soon!  Of course!
Would I fight for my life to the very end?
Out of fear?
Out of courage; for you?
Will I let go?
Can I fall away?
Will you miss me if I’m gone?
Will you miss me when you are alone?
Will you miss me when you are amongst friends.
Will you still be laughing and smiling?
And for how long?
Don’t tell me.
My dog is asleep at my feet.
He has all the answers.
He won’t say, but I finally get it.
It’s not about me.
So now, I can close my eyes…

About Idea Capitalist
Family guy and entrepreneur. Small Business owner. NFIB Leadership Council member. Serial blogger.

4 Responses to Eyes wide open… Reflections

  1. Clarence Gilles says:

    The answers to all of those questions lie in the heart where the Spirit of God dwells. When the heart and the head become one in purpose peace and contentment follow.

    God Bless


  2. Alexis Wiessner says:

    My favorite post to date. I have such a wise father. XOXO~ Ali


  3. Kay Wetzel says:

    It sure is cool that we don’t have to worry about having all the answers. Facing my own mortality has taught me that some things have to be left up to God alone, but we have to be the one to ask Him the questions; give Him the chance to help, and offer Him to opportunity to answer us. Not a hands off deal. It’s also amazing that He has given us the intellect formed after His Own, thus the ability to think those thoughts and ask those questions.

    Thanks for sharing those things that require higher thinking, something that many of us are not taking time to do any more. Hugs dear brother, you are one top shelf kind of guy.


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